As I near the end of my time in New York, I’m left with an overwhelmingly contrasting concoction of feelings and emotions…
I’m excited to reunite with friends and family at home, yet I’m truly devastated to be leaving a city that I’m more in love with now than ever before and my heart aches as I start preparing to leave the people I’ve befriended whilst living here.
“I don’t want this to end” is something I’ve uttered countless times in the past few days.
But today I got to thinking…why is it that we always focus on aspects of our lives ending rather than other things beginning? When you get to the end of a chapter in a book, you don’t mourn that you’ve finished that section. Instead, you are excited to read what the next pages have to offer.
My 3 months in New York have taught me a wealth of priceless life lessons and I do believe that one of the most important is that every experience counts for something and is another stepping stone taking you to where you are meant to be. It just so happens that this lesson is now coming to an end and it’s time for the next chapter to begin, where I will be challenged in other ways and also given the opportunity to use the knowledge I have acquired in the past months.
As human beings, we get attached very easily and so it’s hard to let go when something has significantly impacted on our lives. I know I keep comparing this idea to chapters in a book but it’s true – would anybody read a novel if it was just stuck on one section? No.
We can get stuck so easily – in safe routines, convenient jobs, comfortable relationships…and truthfully, once something feels good we don’t want to move on. We would rather stay frozen in that one singular moment. But life is not frozen. It’s moving, all the time. I suppose this isn’t really news to any of us, but how many people really live it?
New York has physically forced me to accept that time is fleeting, with the city’s constantly moving, never ceasing, persistent, relentless momentum, and additionally, the temporary nature of my stay. I’ve absorbed everything I possibly could and my experiences here will always have a special place in my heart. I’ve been reminded of who I am and what it is that I want out of life. I refuse to be stuck, or frozen in comfortable routines. I will not see ‘ends’, only ‘beginnings’.
So if you find yourself grieving something drawing to a close or you’re yearning to be back at a point in the past, cast your eyes forward because that’s where life is waiting. Life doesn’t go back, only forward.
I’m excited and more importantly, READY to start my next chapter.